Title: The Black and White of Things
Rating: PG13
Chapters: 9/10
Pairing: Sakumoto
Genera: Romance, Comedy, angst
Word Count: 1,252
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: I am so sorry! I was so busy with...school...stuff....for the past week that I just totally forgot about posting, but now that everything is cleared up I can get back for my fanfiction! YAY!. I was sad that I couldn't make a Halloween fic so I think I might just throw one together for the hell of it even though it is officially November 1st but I think you guys wont mind. Whatever though, please enjoy chapter 9 of The Black and White of Things. Only one more left to go. Ahh!
Previous Chapter: arashijun.livejournal.com/5753.html
( Chapter 9 )




A/n: So only one more chapter left, and Im currently working on it. I may do a little one shot though right before that with this story for Halloween. I think it would be reasonable. Haha
So thank you all for stickign with a reading my fic. And I hope to see your comments up to the last chapter and I can't wait to see you all again in the future. Till the next chapter. our Final! [Or maybe our one-shot then final lol]


Feelin' a little: Childish =]
Jammin' out to:  My Band - Eminem/D12

Title: The Black and White of Things
Raiting: PG13
Chapters: 8/??
Pairing: Sakumoto
Genera: Romance, Comedy, angust
Word Count: 1,252
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: I didn't want to say nothing but we're getting close to the end you guys!!! Only a few more chapters!...wait no, 2 more!! AHHHHH! It makes me kinda makes me sad to think that it's almost over. So sad. Okay nough of that Please enjoy and comment!
Previous Chapter:  arashijun.livejournal.com/5294.html#arashijun5294


( Chapter 8 )


Feelin' a little: Out there?
Jammin' out to: River Flows in You (Vocal. Ruvin) - Yiruma

Title: Things That Fall in Your Face
Rating: G
Chapters: Drabble
Pairing: None, unless you thing that its mini Sakuaiba
Genera: Comedy
Word Count: 649
Summary: What happens while Sho is at Jun's using his laptop after Aiba broke his? The answer is very funny.
A/N: I wrote this because of the inspiration I got while on MLIA, it as just to funny to pass up. I thank you all at MLIA, especially the story that gave me inspiration =]


( I was over Jun’s house using his computer because something had ‘mystriously’ happened to my laptop last time Aiba had used it. )

Feelin' a little: Gooffy
Jammin' out to: Only Look At me - Tae-Yang

Title: The Black and White of Things
Raiting: PG13/Pg16
Chapters: 7/??
Pairing: Sakumoto,
Genera: Angust, Drama, Romance
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: So reading over this chapter I noticed that It was pretty bad. But if I go back and change it, then Ill have to change the chapters after that so...Gomen na Sai! Hotoni gomen na sai, for my failage! I didn't think it would come out THAT bad when writing Oh-chan's part but....well you guys will see.

( Chapter 7 )


Feelin' a little: Calm/tired
Jammin' out to: Meeting each Other - Lee Seung Gi
Location : Here, there and back again...I kid. In Ma...no, I'm not gonna say. Wouldn't you all like to know where I was exactly...? *Smirks* Hmmm.

Title: Another Day
Raiting: PG13 just because of suggestive themes [though I managed to not curse or say the word sex at all, its still implyed though!]
Chapters: Oneshot
Pairing: Sakuaiba
Genera: Romance, Comedy
Word Count - 1,309 words <==FAILAGE!!!!
Summary: Just another day with Aiba Masaki and his random acts of love <3
A/N: I've been wanting to try a Sakuaiba and since I only have one chapter left of The Black and White of Things to type I figured what the hell and took a break. This is failure for me because it's so short, and I tend to write long things, but whatever works. I hope you like it, its my first Sakuaiba, so please comment and tell me if it fails or not!

 

I didn’t know how to describe it.

Things were always so simple and understanding.

But not now

Now, I have no idea what to think.

I’ve been thrown into this confusing world of questions with no answers

Of faces I know but feelings I don’t

What is all this?

Is it hell?

Is it heaven?

Or is it Limbo?

 

I’m spinning out of control, and all I want…

All I really want…

If for someone to stop me, and steady my course.

 

~~~

 

What do you do when all then things you knew to be correct in the world suddenly change? How do you feel when you realize that someone who was your closest friend could possibly mean more to you? What are you to do exactly? Confront it? Ignore it? What is the right answer?

 

This is how Aiba Masaki felt, and more. He had no idea what was going on, nor how to fix it. All he knew was Confusion.

 

He tired to keep his distance from his friends trying to figure things out, only to be more lost and confused. This was bad, even for Aiba, or hyperactive experimental friend.

He had long given up on trying figuring this out, it was causing him to gain a headache beyond control, it was bets to just face it and let things work themselves out, right?

 

At least that’s what he kept telling himself as he walked to Sakurai Sho’s apartment after not seeing him in over a week. Aiba was feeling empty without him, empty and lost. It was obvious to other people what Aiba was feeling, but not to him.

 

 

He rang the door bell feeling awkward, like he shouldn’t be here. Just as he was about to walk away before making a fool of himself Sho opened the door phone between his shoulder and ear nodding for Aiba to come in.

 

“I understand, but what I don’t get is, why a Pineapple of all things?” Aiba looked at Sho with a confused puppy look as he sat on the couch. Sho shook his head finishing his phone conversation. “No, seriously, what’s with the pineapple? Is there some meaning behind it? That’s the most random thing you can send a person. Not family, a person in general. What? No, I wouldn’t do that with… Eh? Ew, no! What the hell?! I really don’t want to hear this form you of all people, mom. No.! Ugh, no. I’m hanging up now…” Sho paused looking over at Aiba who seemed to be spacing now. “No, really I’m hanging up mom. Bye.” Sho hit the end button before his mother could say something else either illreivent, crazy, or vulgar. Was this really his mother? He questioned that in so many ways.

 

Sho sat down next to Aiba letting out a heavy sigh shutting his eyes for a moment. Aiba’s heart speed up a bit feeling Sho’s presents next to him, bringing him back out of Ailand.

 

“So, what was that all about?” He asked trying to be casual, but was a little to stiff to fully pull that off. Sho, still not opening his eyes sighed again. “I question my family once again.” He lifted his head and looked over at Aiba, “Seriously! Who sends a pineapple to their son out of nowhere? It's gotta mean something, it just has to.” Aiba looked at him for a minute almost getting lost in Sho’s eyes but turned away embarrassed. “I’m sure it’s just a pinappuru Sho-chan.”

 

Sho was now resting his elbows on his knees holding his head. “It’s pronounced ‘Pineapple’, Aiba.” Aiba looked over at Sho, “That’s what I said. Pinappuru.” Sho shook his head. “No, you’re saying ‘Pinappuru’ when the word is Pineapple. Pine-ap-ple.” He broke down the word for Aiba hoping he would say it right. “Yeah, I know. Pin-ap-puru.” He pounced wrong again.

 

Sho gave up. “Just forget it. What did you stop by for?” He put his full attention gaze on Aiba making him all of a sudden nervous again. “N-nothing. I was just passing by with nothing to do.” That’s a surprise. Surely Aiba would have had one of his random experiments waiting for him, but guess not.

 

Sho didn’t say anything for a bit, to Aiba it felt like hours. “So…you stop by here?” He asked, Aiba nodded. “And you think I have something fun to do?” He shook his head. “Then why me?” Aiba stopped to think about that one then shrugged. “I guess…because MatsuJun would probably get annoyed. Nino would either be with Oh-chan or playing Video Games, while Oh-chan either is with Nino or fishing…but then again he could be painting. So, you seemed like the best person Sho-chan.” He smiled weakly. “Should I not have come?”

 

“No…it was just sudden is all.” Sho fidgeted under the slight pressure of Aiba’s shocking boldness. Aiba nodded relaxing a little; it was all in his head. There was no reason for him to be nervous around Sho.

 

The two sat in silence for a minute then Aiba decided to just say whatever popped into his head. “So, what are you going to do with the pinappuru?” He twitched. “It’s Pineap- Oh forget it!” He sat back and scratched his head. “I don’t know. I don’t really eat pineapple. I have no use for it.” Aiba nodded. “You can give it to MatsuJun. I’m sure he could find a reason for it. Maybe cook with it!” Aiba suggested with a smile. “MatsuJun would probably make something amazing!”

 

This reminded Sho of his inability to cook anything good, well tasting good and looking good re two different things…but the fact still remains. “You, have a point…”

 

Sho then proceeded to call Jun and ask him if he wanted said Pineapple. “Are you crazy?” Aiba heard from over the phone. “No…why?” Sho asked slightly guarded. “Because you know I can’t eat pineapple!” Jun yelled. Sho looked over at Aiba who smiled sheepishly mouthing the words ‘Opps, I forgot.’ Sho mentally smacked himself for thinking that Aiba would have a bright idea.

 

“Right, totally forgot.” That would explain part of the reason what Sho didn’t eat pineapple anymore, being around Jun so much. “Why not give it to Aiba? He’ll think of something useful for it.” Sho shook his head. “No, Aiba’s the one that suggested you have it. He said you’d probably cook with it or something. Slipped my mind that you couldn’t eat them.” Jun sighed on the other end. “We’ll you’re bright, think of something Keio Boy. I have to go.” Jun then hung up leaving Sho still with that dammed pineapple that was useless.

 

Sho sighed and put the phone down. He didn’t care anymore. Maybe he would just throw it out…

 

“I do have one other idea…” Aiba offered looking at Sho who just signaled for him to continue…

 

Boy did Aiba have an idea alright. And let’s just say it didn’t involve experiments or cooking, so no one god hurt…well that’s still a lie. Aiba’s idea did though result in many many things. Like the answer to his questions, and a very good answer at that.

 

[Stop beating around the bush! Get to the point! They want to know! Aiba-san…you cannot yell at the narrator/author, it’s very rude. Then tell them!!! They have a right to know about what happened to the pinappuru! Narrator&Sho: It’s PINEAPPLE! GET IT RIGHT!]

 

Aiba took the pineapple or pinappuru if you are speaking improper English [engrish] like Aiba, and cut it up. The rest just involved, a bit of imagination, Sho, and the bedroom…which they never fully made it to. Who knew you could have so much fun with a pineapple? Now if only we could get him to pronounce it right…. Maybe another day… Sho is a bit tired out now.

Title: The Black and White of Things
Raiting: Still PG13/Pg16 [is that a raiting?] Because I get into the who sex thing, but dont go into detail...I don't do smut.
Chapters: 6/??
Pairing: Sakumoto,
Genera: Angust, Drama, ROMANCE
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: I have no witty rants for you today. Its just another chapter, posted because Im tired and I have from this chapter to 9 already written so yeah, what the hell! Haha, enjoy. 
Previous Chapter -  arashijun.livejournal.com/4321.html

Chapter 6

 

I was remembering things now, not much or anything important, but small things like how long I’ve known Ninomiya, or what his nick name was and who came up with it. I also remembered a bit about Aiba, the crazy experimental one of the group, he was responsible for when most of us got hurt [but he reassure me that he was not the reason as to why I was in the hospital.] Things about Ohno were still fuzzy, minus that he had always been a very quiet person and was the oldest of the group.

 

Sho on the other hand…I was just remembering things about him. It started out strangely, we got into a fight one day and hadn’t spoke for a full day after that, but there was a strange retching pain in my heart that told me I needed to be with him that I wanted to be with him. I didn’t fully understand but decided to act on this feeling.

 

That’s when things started to get complicated. When I showed up at his apartment he looked at me with this look of ‘what do you want form me no? Haven’t you killed me enough?’ Seeing this look a few things came back to me, like this had happened before.

 

Staring at Sho I began to believe that I was doing the right thing by coming here. I also believed that I was doing the right thing by kissing him. But when he told me that he just me to be able to smile more than anything and take my time in remembering, I believed that I missed something and took a wrong turn.

 

Now I was sitting in my apartment, three months later, January 25^th with nothing to do. I was still on a leave from school until next April, which made absolutely no sense to me because then I would just have to do the year over again. But Sho insisted on it, saying that he would help me with anything. But that left me bored everyday. I was finally given my freedom when Sho deemed me able to take of myself and convinced that I no longer need supervision 24/7 by them. Now that I was alone though, I missed the company.

 

I walked into my kitchen to get something to drink; maybe I would take a nap until later, maybe. As I closed the fridge I noticed the calendar that Aiba had put up. Stopping to look over this month’s date I noticed something. “January 25^th….Sho-chan’s birthday…” I read Aiba fast sloppy script. But today was the 25^th… I started at the date for a while slowly remembering something.

 

“Eh? Why didn’t t you tell me?” I asked Sho one January day. “I didn’t see the reason.” He laughed sitting back at the table drinking a soda. I rolled my eyes putting my head into my hands. He was being unreasonable.

 

Looking back up at him I smiled. “Then can we make a deal?” He raised an eyebrow, as if my next words surly were scary. “From now on, every year on the day after your birthday, you have to have sex with me.” He chocked on his soda coughing up a storm his face as red as a tomato. “I’m sorry….what?” He breathed. I smirked. “You heard me.”

 

He started at me for a moment taking in what I had just said. “What does that have to do with-”I cut him off, “But, on your birthday, since you are hopeless, Ill make you dinner.” I knew Sho wouldn’t turn this offer down; after all he couldn’t cook for his life and always enjoyed my food.

 

His expression changed many times as he contemplated over the idea, but with each change his expression got softer and softer showing his defect. “Fine.” He said, “I agree to it. But it better be something good.” And every year we stuck to that agreement.

 

Remembering that now I felt as if I should still stick with that agreement. Surely it would make him happy, and with everything going on lately it was obvious he was under a lot of streets since not even his smiles were full anymore. I had to do this, not for myself, but for Sho, he would definitely want something good on his birthday.

 

I checked my wallet only to see it was empty except for a note from Aiba. ‘Sorry, needed to borrow some money for pizza, Ill pay you back next week. Aiba – 10.24’ Seeing the date and no money it was more than obvious that he still didn’t pay me back, but Aiba was broke now, and would be until next Monday. I sighed, this wasn’t my day.

 

But then I remembered that Nino’s job wasn’t far from me. Grabbing my cell phone and jacket I ran out of the house and down to see if he was there. I ran into the game store he worked and looked all around until I saw him restocking a shelf. “Nino!”  I called out. “Nino, can I borrow some money.” Once I asked this question I knew it was going to be trouble. “No.” He said walking past me over to the register. “Please! I know you have money. You never pay for anything yourself if you can help it or its video games. So I know you have money.” He looked at me then away. “No, Jun.” He said ringing someone up. “Why do you need mine anyway?”

 

 I sighed leaning on the counter. “Because Aiba took the money out of my wallet back in October and has yet to pay me back.” He laughed handing someone their receipt. “Then just go ask him…oh wait has broke. Ask Oh-chan.” He offered looking down in the showcase/counter of video games. “I don’t have time to look for him.” He eyed me for a second. “And don’t say Sho either.” A smirk immediately appeared on his face making me want to eat my words. “And why should I not mention Sho?”

 

Maybe I should leave before I get myself into something that could make this even longer. “Just don’t.” He looked at me with that stupid smirk still and waited for an actually answer. “Fine, its because I’m doing this for him.” Nino took out his wallet as he stepped away from the cash register. “What are you doing?” He said handing me 30 bucks. Taking the money I started for the door. “Making him dinner for his birthday.” I saw his expression change into shock. “I promised!” I called back before the door shut.

 

It was time for me to actually move. It was 4 o’clock, Sho got off of work at 6 and I had to get to his place and cook. This could work. I could make this…probably.

 

 

When cooking this time I just followed my heart. I decided to buy some pretty random things and cook however it came out. And I just happened to finish just in time. Because Sho walked in just as I put food on the plate. Taking off his shoes and jacket he looked at me never taking his eyes off me. “What are you doing?” He asked walking into the kitchen. I looked back over to the plates to finish putting food on them. “Making you a birthday dinner.” He nodded and opened the fridge as if what I was doing would be no surprise. But then he stopped and looked at me. “Wait, what? But I thought…”

 

“That I didn’t remember, and I didn’t at first.” I smiled handing him a plate. He took it with caution letting the fridge door close. “But then I saw the calendar on my fried and remembered, with a little help from Aiba though.” He looked at the food and nodded before I pushed him along to his sit and eat.

 

He took his time eating my food. I was scared that it wouldn’t taste good or that he wouldn’t like it. But he soon got more animated telling me that it was enjoyable. It was a fairly simple meal. I had cooked some Angle Hair pasta [very, very simple], Bought some shrimp [courtesy of Nino], and seasoned it with whatever Sho had in the kitchen, which was actually surprising to how much there was. I found things like Parsley Flakes, Dill Weed [which I have no idea what that is], Paprika, Garlic Powder, then I found things from take out food. Like packets after packets of Soy Sauce [never a full bottle], sweet and sour dipping sauce, honey mustard and a bunch more stuff. It eventually got to the point where I didn’t know what I as using. But obviously it came out good.

 

Sho leaned back in his chair full after he finished eating. There was a satisfied smile on his face. “That was amazing.”  He looked at me. “Really. I had almost forgotten that you could cook so well.” He laughed looking down at the empty plates, his smile soon faded. I wondered if something was wrong, but before I could ask he got up taking the plates into the kitchen to wash the dishes. “You don’t have you…” I said getting up to follow him. “I can take care of it.” I tried to take the plate from his hands but he just turned to look at me with this melancholy smile. “Jun, do you know what I would love right now? Some wine. Do you think you could get me some?”

 

I stared at him for a moment, I didn’t thing it was possible since I was out of money again, but when he reached to take out his wallet I shock m head saying that I would take care of it.

 

Heading out into the cold trying to think of how I would come back with wine was a problem. But then I remembered that I had a bottle stashed away at my place for something special, now special what exactly. I have no clue, but Sho’s birthday was special enough right? And surely I would forgive myself later…right?

 

Back at Sho’s, when I had acquired the wine, he was sitting on the couch looking out the window just staring into space. I didn’t want to disturbed him, so I quietly opened the bottle and poured two glasses. When I brought the glass over, not two seconds after I gave it to him, Sho had drunk the whole think and asked for another. I gave it to him reluctantly.

 

Sho was drunk, completely wasted, and making no sense what-so-ever. Now this was a problem. I couldn’t possible leave him like this. It was then that my feeling of wanting to be with him grew ever stronger.

 

Sho as flapping around and talking incoherently about topics that made absolutely no sense. He looked at me at one point with his eyes and squinted. “I see you.” He said with a straight face. “See who…?” I asked weakly backing up a bit leaning on the couch arm. “Jun-pyon. My Jun-pyon.” I raised an eyebrow, “care to explain.”

 

He hiccupped. “The Jun-pyon here now is not mine. He only remembers small details of Sho….” He paused looking at the window. “He doesn’t remember all about Sho and his relationship….” He turned back to me, “But Jun-pyon that is poking his head out every now and then does. He’s questioning on coming back or not. Nee, Jun-pyon…current Jun-pyon…Please let the real Jun come back….” He pleaded looking sad, tears forming into his eyes. This sight bothered me so much, it made my heartache and want to cry, cry my eyes out until there was nothing left. “But current Jun-pyon. Please, if you do stay, care for me, love me like you do now. Just don’t….Don’t leave me.”

 

I couldn’t hold it any longer. Tears started to over flow from my eyes. I didn’t know all about Sho’s and my relationship, that was true, but I did know, that no matter what happened in my life, something in me would always tell me to care for Sho. There was no question about it. I could not, not care for him. My heart was his; I knew that, even if I wasn’t fully there, it would always be his.

 

I hugged Sho crying into the crook of his neck as he did the same to me. My hands gripped the back of his shirt tight wrinkling it up. “I promise…” I mumbled into his shirt still crying along with him. “I promise…that no matter what…I’ll always care for you, no matter what…because…” we pulled back from each other as he looked at me, still drunk but obviously more than aware. “I love you Sho. I love you.” I said bursting into tears rubbing my face into his chest as he started to cry again.

 

Things were clearing up for me in some aspects, but still things were hazy. The reason as to why this had all happened was still a mystery to me, and no one would tell me exactly what happened, saying that I had to discover that one on my own. There was always something in the back of my head telling me that said reason was not something I should push to find out, but I had to know, I had to. My life was becoming more complicated without knowing. While light was being finally shown on one side of my life, the darkness engulfed me on the other…trying to drag me into the lonely abyss that was the actually truth, making things no longer black and white...but just pitch black. And out of all the things going on…that’s was scared me most of all.

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Title: The Black and White of Things
Raiting: Still PG13/Pg16 [is that a raiting?] Because I get into the who sex thing, but dont go into detail...I don't do smut.
Chapters: 5/??
Pairing: A few Sakuaiba hints here and there, Big Sakumoto [Finally!!!!]
Genera: Angust, Drama, ROMANCE [This chapter is full of it, you just have to look]
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: So here we are chapter 5 already! ONe reason is because I am very very... nvm. I have nothign better 2 do now an I am actually 2 chapters ahead of what I planned to be by this point so its time for an updated weather it was planned or not. This chapter and the next one is more or less all sakumoto. I felt that I needed to get into something with them since, its Sakumoto...come on people. I'm sorry for all you Sakuaiba fans but Ill maybe do a little fan serive later on after the main plot is done...maybe not promising knowing me. You will also notice that we do learn more about their past, personally I can't tell if it came out all that well but...w/e Enjoy.
Previous chapter:
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Chapter 5

 

“Nee, Sho-chan.” Aiba poked my shoulder a few times. “You don’t plan on staying inside all day do you?” He pouted probably hoping that he get me out of the house today. I sighed turning the page of my book. “Yeah, that was the plan. I have no reason to leave.” No reason at all…not one.

 

Things were not going well, for anyone. Jun’s problem was now becoming everyones problem. Lately. He was making this impossible and I was done. A few days to myself was needed…even if I didn’t want to have them.

 

I remember the first time I met Jun; it was back when I was a freshmen in college and he was still in high school. He needed a tutor, understandable. But me being his was a questionable matter on my end. I didn’t see how I could be of any help, and I still don’t know how I did. Jun didn’t actually need help; he told me that from day one. “I understand this stuff, I just don’t do it.” He said opening his text book. “You can tell my mom, but that’s just no pay for you.” I took his words into consideration. The kid had a point…in a strange twisted way. And at the time…money ‘earned’ was money needed.

 

So we got ‘cracking’ into the tutoring. I spent the same time as he did doing my homework. At first it bothered me coming everyday and not actually having to do what I was hired for but I soon got over it and understood full well that one little white lie wouldn’t hurt anyone. After all it was just one.

 

The afternoons I spent with Jun started out like a headache, just because I had nothing better to do once I as done my homework and he was still doing his. Then they soon grew into something toriable, while he was working we would have small conversations, about nothing and everything. About what any normal teenage would talk about. I learned a lot about him, and if he was paying attention he learned about me as well.

 

One day I laid back on the floor looking up at the ceiling after I finished my homework. Jun tapped his pencil on the table a few times then it sounded like he erased nearly a full page, and then started to tap it again. I closed my eyes to ignore the sound.  He continued, a few pauses here and there to either write and/or erase things. Finally getting frustrated he shook my foot. “Ne, Sakurai-san, can you explain this?” I sat up and started at him in shock. Mr. Know it all was asking for help? Well I’ll be damned, for a second there I thought I was dreaming.

 

I explained it to him a few times only for him to still be confused and give up for the day. Maybe he was more hopeless than I thought…

 

The school year soon ended, and Jun managed to pass everything not thanks to me, but still I felt as if I had done something for him, maybe? The least I could do was buy him lunch, and considering I had the extra money… it couldn’t hurt.

 

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Jun shoved a fry into his mouth mumbling. I took a sip of my soda and raised an eye brow. “I know you can speak Japanese. But I cant speak full mouth.” I said point out that he was trying to eat to much at once. He finished chewing and finished off his drink only to steel some of mine. “Oh yeah, sure go ahead, I don’t mind…” I mumbled taking a bite of my burger. “Sorry. Excuse me miss! Can we get another drink over here?” Jun called out to one of the waitresses.

 

“Why are you being such a glutton today?” He shrugged eating a ton again leaving me shocked and also slightly disturbed.

 

 

The two of us walked down the street, I checked my wallet, and I didn’t think such a small kid could eat so much…but the proof was in my empty wallet no doubt. “If you want to hang out more we have to make a small detour back to my apartment.” I said crossing the street, he followed behind me. “Sure.”

 

I soon started to think something was up. He was being strangely quiet, that was anything but like Jun. “Is something wrong, Jun?” I asked as we got to the apartment complex. He shook his head and offered a small smile leaving me still saspious of him. We walked into the building and to my place in silence.

 

I opened the door to find it empty and quiet. To quiet, the type where you could hear the silence. Jun soon broke that as I looked around my stuff. “Um, Sho-san, I figured that now would be the best time to say this.” He said quietly. I didn’t bother to look over at him just yet as I was more focused on finding something. “Okay shoot.” I offered nonetheless.

 

He didn’t say anything for a while; I was getting worried so I looked back at his face. His cheeks were pink. First thought that came to my mind was that he had a fever, but before I could walk over to check he took in a deep breath and looked directly into my eyes. “Sho-san, I like you.” I blinked a few times. Took a breath then blinked again. “Eh?” At first I didn’t fully understand him. I knew he liked me, we are friends after all. “No not like that. I mean….” He looked down at his feet. “More that a friend.” I didn’t know what to say so I just started at him…

 

It was then that I noticed a few things about Jun. Since the day we had met, I had always believed his hair to be black, but it was a very dark brown, or so it was at the time.  His eyes were two different shades of brown due to his contacts, which I personally didn’t like. He still had the face of a child but it was slowly changing.

 

Jun looked at me with his deep still child-like eyes waiting for an answer. But I couldn’t speak, not a word. I had no idea how to respond to that. It wasn’t that I had anything against the idea of…of going out with another guy; it was just so…so sudden! I didn’t know what to think.

 

I had to say something, anything. The longer I stood there not making a sound the more hurt he would be no matter what I answered him with. Then just as I was about to open my mouth to answer him, my cell phone rang. I shut my eyes tightly for a few rings before actually answering it. “H-hello?” I stuttered still in shock. “What? No…” I couldn’t make out half of what was being said to me. “No! L-look…I don’t have time for this.” I sighed trying to figure out what I was going to do now, this was so complicated.

 

The topic of conversation soon switched to my tutoring and Jun. “Eh? Yes…I am with him right now.” I looked over at Jun who raised an eyebrow. “What? Ugh! No!!! What the hell man! Get off the meds!” I yelled hanging up throwing my phone across the room in frustration.

 

Jun’s eyes followed my every movement from the time he confessed to me, to when I looked back up at him from falling to my knees on the floor. “Jun, I---” I tried to start out but he cut me off. “I want you to be honest with your answer. Please Sho. That’s all I want from you at least, your honesty.” I looked into his eyes once again seeing his innocence’s knowing that I had to actually be honest. I looked back down to the floor. “I just don’t know. I have no idea how to answer you….at least not yet.” I stood back up going to grab my phone. “But…I’ll figure it out. I promise. That’s my last job as your tutor.”

 

The day was then ruined. I just walked Jun home felling like the world was trying to collapse in on me. I had no idea how to act around Jun for the next few weeks, but that was the least of my problems. I was more considerened on what I was going to tell him. It was making things more complicated…

 

I was sitting in a diner one day about a year later. It was around 5 pm and since my means for dinner were never good I was once again eating out. My life had been pretty clam as of late. Nothing big ever happened though, littlary. And it was boring.

 

I stuffed some fries into my mouth looking out into the rainy day. What a great way for a day to end, I get to walk home in the rain, oh goody! It was days like this in the spring that my mood would turn sour, and it had been so many times that I had forgotten why these days bothered me so much.

 

As I was finishing my dinner I saw something zoom past my window then the diner’s door opened showing a dripping Aiba Masaki walking over to my table out of breath. I looked him up and down a few times with a raised eyebrow before actually asking on what he had done this time.

 

Finally I looked away from him and back out the window. “I don’t even want to know what happened this time.”

 

By then I had known Aiba for about 6 months, and he was a…very interesting person. Aiba liked to experiment with things and act on a whim, more than normal. He went to the same college with me, but I never knew actually what it was he studied since most of the time when he showed up it always involved something either crazy, or him already having caused the trouble and coming to me for help.

 

I picked up my glass to finish off my soda when something zoomed past my window again. I glanced across the table and Aiba was still there….so when the reason for Aiba’s frantic running came over to my table as well I went into shock. There stood before me an angry Jun, panting and glaring at Aiba.

 

Taking a deep breath I put my glass down and looked at Aiba trying to ignore the fact that Jun was standing right there and not some other random person like always. I planned out my next move calmly. “Aiba,” He looked over at me with his puppy face, “What the hell did you do this time?”

 

He laughed weakly and put his hands up defensively. “Nothing! I swear Sho-chan. I did nothing!” I rolled my eyes. “Ma-sa-ki.” I said slowly, “That is a lie and you know it. Seriously, you know better.” Aiba clapped his hands together and bowed his head, “I’m so sorry!” He said to me, “Please forgive me, Sakurai Sho-chan!”

 

“Sakurai?” Jun said finally noticing me. I looked up at him as if I hadn’t noticed it was actually Matsumoto Jun, the same one I stopped tutoring only just a year prior. He stared at me, as I did back. I could see the difference in him from the last time we met. He no longer looked like the high schooler I met that one day [or the day we last saw each other around 6 months ago]; he looked as if he was, well in college.  It wasn’t so much that his looks changed, it was just the way he carried himself. His whole aura was different than before, but at the same time it felt all to familiar with me. As if it was calling me, saying, “Finally, I found you”

 

I nodded. “Yes, I’m Sakurai. Why?” I asked pretending as if I was completely clueless that it was Jun. “He shook his head and then looked at me again, his gaze as strong as always. He chuckled and ran a hand through his hair. “Well I’ll be damned…” He said it humorlessly, as if this encounter was actually causing him physically pain instead of emotional.

 

He looked back at Aiba then back at me. “And is he..?” He pointed to Aiba. “Is Masaki what?” I asked knowing full well what he meant by the question. “Oh nothing…”

 

“Ne, Sho-chan.” I looked over At Aiba. “What?” I asked more than slightly annoyed, pissed was more of a better word if you asked me. “Who is that, and how do you know him?” I sighed knowing full well that this would be a long night.

 

Leaning back in my chair I called over a waitress to get something more to drink. As I waited for my drink Jun helped himself to a chair wanting to listen in on this conversation. After my drink came I sighed once again looking at Aiba. “Okay, this,” I pointed to Jun, “Is Matsumoto Jun.” I heard a small gasp, as if he was shocked that I still remembered him. “I use to tutor him, back in freshmen year…”

 

It was 3 am and what happened? Someone was knocking on MY apartment door. Knocking on my door at 3 am. Do people have no class at all anymore? Really.

 

I answered only to slam it back shut turning off the lights and heading back to bed.

 

BANG BANG BANG!!!!

 

The knocking turned into banging on my door. Pissed off and now awake I swung the door open not bothering with the lights. “Why? Hmm? Why now? Its 3 am! I should be asleep! Why are you here make it fast.” I said not letting my rude awakener in. “Is that really anyway to act, Sho-san?” I rolled my eyes still not letting him in. “At 3 am it is. Now state your business.”

 

What I was greeted with next was not and explanation but a kiss. A shocking yet welcomed kiss. I froze not sure exactly how to react. This was so unexpected, a kiss by someone at 3 am when we had just gotten into an argument the other day.

 

Impulse soon took over, I had no idea what was happening but it was long needed.

 

Still lip locked Jun and I slowly made our way into my apartment moving through the place, bumping into things but ignoring them as we got more and more absorbed into each other. Finally after bumping into almost everything in my house we made it to my bedroom. Jun was taking action like he always did. He had a tendency to not let a “say” in how things went and just took control. I never minded but after a while I stopped trying to and let him do as he pleased.

 

Jun was different today. Sure he was warm, gentle and passionate like always but this time something was missing. He wasn’t himself obviously. I didn’t understand though. Jun had lost his memory, he knew nothing of our relationship at the moment so why was he here now, at time of night (when he knew full well now that I had to work in the morning) trying to get with me.

 

As I realized that he had still no idea guilt started to weigh down in the pit of my stomach making this harder and harder to enjoy. I couldn’t do this, as much as I missed him and his soft, rough, yet fully loving kisses, I couldn’t do this. I felt as if having sex with him now, would be like betraying him. After all this was Jun, but at the same time wasn’t….

 

Jun was in full mod ready to go, but I had to stop him. Now was my only chance. I had to do it. That’s what I though and I willed myself to do it, but I couldn’t bring myself to push his face off of mine and say, ‘You have to leave. I can’t do this now.’ My voice as gone, it was just to hard. As much as I wanted to be with him but didn’t at this very moment, I also felt that if I had said something that the chance of Jun starting to remember things would be lost again. So I stayed silent as let him continue with his ideas.

 

I woke up the next morning later then usual. The thought of work farthest from my mind but I still knew I had to be there. I squinted my eyes as I opened them looking at the bright light coming in from my windows. The previous night’s events still fresh in my head playing over and over again, as if it was a broken record. I had to have been the worst person in the world, to have taken advantage of not only one of my good friends but of my lover. I knew I wouldn’t be able to face him when we met up next.

 

It was then that I felt something move behind me. A warm face pressed up against my bare back mumbling. My heart spead up as I felt my face heat. Jun was still here. I could feel his entire presence now and it was horrible. I couldn’t accept this, but if I moved now he would surly wake up being such a light sleeper.

 

He moved again, and again, turning until he finally woke up. I felt the bed shift telling me that he had sat up. I could see his reflection in my mirror above the dresser. He looked around my room groggy as if he couldn’t remember where he was and why he was here.

 

Scratching the back of his head he yawned then looked over at me. “Ne…Sho, are you awake?” He didn’t lean over but just continued to look at me. I laid there for a minute before rolling over at look at him. I looked up into his deep eyes and for a second…just for a spilt seconded, I thought I had see the real Jun, the him form back before all this trouble had started. But then my world crashed as part of him changed a little.

 

It wasn’t that he became….hostile or anything. Its just It went back to the current Jun that had no idea of anything from before the accident besides what we told him. “Sho, can I ask you something?” He said looked away from me and around my room. I humed a response. “Do you like me?” My breath became short. It was three years ago all over again.

 

I turned my head away from him and looked back over at my window. “Yes.” I said, and it was the truth, I just couldn’t say it to his face. I felt his gaze back on me, watching my every movement, counting the seconds between my breaths. “Say it to my face, Sho. Please.” I didn’t respond nor look at him; I just laid there, breathing deeply keeping myself calm. After a minute of this he took my face and turned to it him. “Sho…”

 

“Stop.” I breathed. Closing my eyes I sat up and got out of bed. “I….can we do this later? I have to get to work.” I said not stopping for an answer and just heading to take a shower. When I came out just ten minutes later Jun was gone, with no note left behind. Figures.

 

The day went by slowly at work. I just couldn’t stay focused. It was 5 o’clock when I got a text from Jun.

 

‘I didn’t mean to put you on the spot today. I just felt as if I should ask for some reason.

Can we met up later? I think we should talk.

But I honestly don’t know why. It’s just a feeling. I got the vibe that you had something important to say to me.

If you don’t want to I understand.

-Jun’

 

I didn’t respond to the text right away. I knew I had to talk to Jun, but I couldn’t bring myself to see his face right away. As much as I wanted to be with him, I couldn’t stand the current Jun. So much more arrogant that usual, so full of himself, but still like such a child. Just like when we first met.

 

I decided to meet up with him after work. We went out to dinner like we always use to do. But I had no appetite so I only picked at my food. Jun on the other hand, he no problem eating all of his food.

 

“I think I should just say it.” He started out taking my wine glass and sipping from it. I glanced up at him before looking back at my food. “I do like you.” Obviously. He was making things harder now. Just like before. He never changed, no matter what circumstances. Jun would always be Jun. But this wasn’t easy for me. “Really?” I said nonchalantly feeling far from that. He nodded finishing off my wine much to my dismay.

 

He looked at the empty glass in his hands, “But I feel like I’m doing something I should. It’s true that I still don’t remember much, but little things are starting to come back to me. Only little things. And as they come back I seem to want to be closer to you for some reason, and I don’t know why.” I looked up at him. His eyes were fixed on the glass still as he moved it delicately between his hands and if he gripped any tighter and it would brake. A seconded time that day I saw the real Jun. The one I wanted. But the pain in my heart just retched away at me leaving me cold.

 

I wanted to do this and I wanted to be with him, but this feeling wouldn’t let me. I couldn’t do it. I leaned on the table and looked Jun in the eyes, deciding on what I should do. I knew it would be a mistake but I had to. “Jun, I…I want to be with you. Honestly. But part of me can’t right now. I feel as if saying this is meaning I’m running away but I’m not because even though I feel this way I still want to be with you, and I will.” I looked into his eyes and the glass slipped from his hands falling onto the floor. “This is my confession. Just promise me, that you wont try to hard to remember things….as much I miss you knowing everything about us…I just want you to smile….”

 

Knowing your past is important, but its also important to remember to live in the present.

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A/N: Were getting close to the climax I believe. So Im not going to do to much talking. Just a small intro to the next chapter.

Jun's POV, bits and picecs of his past, Sho's Birthday. Jun and Sho's tearful promise.

Yeah. I went there, you get some tears next chapter. I think I may have gone to far though LOL but oh well Im not going to change it. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and have a good next few days until chpater 6 comes up. Byes my love <3

Fallin' a little: Awake
Jammin' out to: Mad About You - Big Bang

Title: The Black and White of Things
Raiting: Still PG13
Chapters: 4/??
Pairing: Ohmiya Hints? Sakumoto Hints? Lol
Genera: Angust, Drama, other stuff in there but not sure what
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: This is like a chapter just about everyday lives, nothing has really been solved yet. But makes you still wonder ne? I actually had to go back and re-read it before I posted it because I finshed like three days ago but secded to hold it for you guys. Sadly I cant do such a thing. Lol but its still all good.
Previous chapter: arashijun.livejournal.com/3691.html

Chapter 4

Here we were a morning like every other. Oh-chan and I had agreed to meet the others at the coffee shop at 10 but as usual, they were late. Can’t break an old habit can you?

 

I sat there staring out the windows Oh-chan sipped his coffee. He looked tired as usual, but he always had an adorable sleepy look, thought this once he looked TIRED. “Don’t they know the meaning of on time?” I tapped a finger on the table. “I can’t sit here all day. I do have things to do.” I leaned back in the booth and crossed my legs still tapping my finger on the table.

 

Oh-chan then looked at me for a moment. He seemed to be even more confused that normal looking me over once then doing the processes over again three times until he figured something was missing. “Where’s you DS?” He asked raising an eyebrow, as if the whole being late thing had no effect on him whatsoever. “It’s dead.” I grumbled and the shop’s bell rang signaling someone coming in.

 

I looked back behind me over the booth waving my hand to signal the three over. “’Bout time.” I slid over next to the window, as did Oh-chan.” Sho sat next to me while Aiba next to Oh-chan and Jun next to him. “Forgive me, it’s not my fault princess over here has an anger problem when he wakes up.” Sho scoffed pointing at Jun. I rolled my eyes leaning back. “Oh really. I do recall not being woke up like a normal person but being rudely awoken by the sound of, and I quote “Get your lazy ass up you fuck bag! I don’t have all fucking day for this shit.” Yeah, real nice. Just the wake up call everyone asks for.”

 

I sighed staring out the window tuning them out until I was sure the argument was over. Took a good five minutes. “If we’re done being children here, I would like to get this done with. I do actually have places to go today.” I leaned over the table to grab Oh-chan’s coffee cup only to find it empty. “Really?” I put the cup back down with a loud clack, pointing out that I was also in a bad mood.

 

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I got up out of the booth in an even worse mood storming over to the door. This was getting ridiculous. The others called out to me but I wouldn’t hear it. “Good-bye.” I said not waiting for them to respond and left the coffee shop.

 

I had just wasted more than enough time in the coffee shop listening to childish arguments over nothing. I couldn’t take much more of this. I cared for Jun and all, but his mood swings were more than one person could handle. But I couldn’t actually blame him; after all, there was a huge gap in his memory at the moment.

 

But gap or not, it’s not a reason to argue all the time, at least that’s what I told myself…

 

Jun’s situation was…understandable, to a point. But this was getting past the point. He woke up on the 15^th, came home on the 23^rd, and it was now, Novemember 19^th, and yet still him and Sho were aruging like children. He wants to claim that he can handle things himself, yet at the same time wants to argue about everything, and more so now than ever. It’s like the Child in Jun is here more than just Jun., if that’s even possible.

 

I just had to clear my head that was all. Surely, a relaxing day, after my plans were destroyed, would be helpful. And I did just that, had a relaxing day full of video games and no outside contact. As much as I didn’t care, the unsuspecting sales cluck that I would come up to did not need my anger.

 

It was around 12 am when I finally heard something from the ‘outside world’. I paused my game and picked up my cell checking to see if it was worth answering. “Hello?” I asked. “Kazu. Are you okay?” It figures that Oh-chan is worried about me. “Yeah, just fine.” I said putting the phone between my shoulder and my ear picking up the controller again to continue my game. “Good. I was worried you might do something crazy considering how anger you got.”

 

I felt my face heat up in defense. “I didn’t get that mad. I was just annoyed. A person can only take so much of Sho on Jun battles. And it’s only getting worse.” I said cursing myself mentally as I lost a life. “Yeah but…” I sighed; obviously I had to go into full discussion about this. “Look, its not like I’m not on the whole ‘Let’s help Jun get better' train anymore. I just need my space from him. I can’t take much more of him and his temper.” I jammed buttons on my controller trying to defeat one of the level bosses that just refused to die.

 

There was a silence on Oh-chan’s end that almost had me worried. “I understand Kazu, but here’s a thought. Maybe were going about helping him wrong.” I paused the game and raised an eyebrow as if he could see me. “Are you on crack? How else are you supposed to help a sadistic temperamental princess that had lost his memory? Get real. There honestly isn’t much we can do at all if you ask me.” I un-pasued my game, “Fact of the matter is that Jun has lost his memory, my guess is that during said accident there was some type of trauma that he wants to forget. But sadly, for us and him, that while his self-conscious or whatever went to cover that up, some other things got mistook for traumatic memories and were covered up and shoved to the back of his mind as well.

 

“It doesn’t matter if we like the idea of that or not, it’s probably the case. We can’t fix what he’s not ready to have fixed, no matter how much he says he just wants everything normal. It’s not that simple.” I paused when my last man died cursing at the TV then turning it off. “The only thing I think we can do at this point is to give it a break. Plus it’s obvious that none of us, including Jun, can take much more than this.” I rubbed the bridge of my nose. “Very simple. Take a break and let Jun deal with things on his own. Who knows maybe it’ll be helpful?”

 

 

I offered as the doorbell rang. I had completely forgotten about the food I ordered. “Wow Kazu, who knew you were so considered for MatsuJun.” He laughed. I shook my head as I paid the pizza guy. Kicking the door closed I tried to wrap up this topic of conversation. “Yeah right, considered. What ever you say.” I opened the box knowing already that I wasn’t going to finish it. “Ne, Oh-chan. All this mess aside, you want to come over and have some pizza?”

 

 

Oh-chan was right, I am considerened for Jun, but that’s because he is my friend, it would make me heartless if I didn’t care. But like all people I have a different way of shopping how I care. For Oh-chan it was just obvious love, Sho was just a mixture of everything, Aiba…was always questionable [and I don’t mean him as a person]. Jun, he was like a best friend, but like all best friends, we one needed our space [and I was over due for my space] and two, it was about due for an actually argument between us, this whole situation just gave it more of a push.

 

It was times like these that I questioned myself, what was my exact role to each one of these people I spent most of my time with? In my mind it as sometimes a big thing, while others, it was a pain or useless. But all people feel that way. It shows that were human. Everything that has happened since September 15^th has been for a reason. We are obviously supposed to learn from it, what I wasn’t sure of at the time, nor still don’t understand fully. But it also makes sense. Everyone has a time in their life when god just has to throw a blanket of darkness over us. It’s up to us on how we get from under that blanket, but what you gain from it in the end, is more than anyone can expect, or give. Its something you earn, by all your hard work, and something you should share. It shows you that not everything is just Black and White.

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A/N: Okay so after skimming over it really fast, that chapter was an epic fail. But I tried. At least you get to see Nino's POV now and how he feels about the whole thing.
So Im curently working on chapter 5! Woot! And Ill give you an idea of what to expect....
I was gonna post this last night but sadly LJ was under maitnence... So yeah.

Sho-chan POV. Sho and Jun's past and how the met. Apparently Jun was a little smart ass back then too. Haha not to worry hes still as cute as ever. Back into this day, Things start to heat up.

Im hoping that this chapter will be longer than two and a half pages in word doc so I can have you guys actaually excited for once! Haha.
Also, you may recall the Phrase 'Fuck bag' coming one this chapter. I used that because it one fit and two my "daughter" [best friend who calls me mom] always calls our friend Jm that and It was totally perfect if you ask me. But hey its me, Im crazy. Anyway. Glad you read Ill see you next chapter! >< Woo!

Feelin' a little: Still disturbed from lunch at school today
Jammin' out to: Survivor - Tohoshinki [DBSK]

Title: The Black and White of Things
Raiting: Still PG13
Chapters: 3/??
Pairing: Hinted Sakuraiba for this chapter
Genera: Angust, Drama, other stuff in there but not sure what
Summary: Matsumoto Jun just woke up in the hospital one day without any memory as to what happened. He doesn't even remember who his friends are. All he knows is his name, and that something is wrong. Its up to Sakurai Sho and the others to help him remember what it is that truly happened.
A/N: So I got finished this chapter last night and It was bothering me just having it sit there so here it is. Good news, I am fully over my cold now. Thank you. Now just to get rid of my 2 week streak of bad luck. Well see what happens. If you don't pick up on it right away I've decided to change the POV up. This chapter is Aiba-chan, while the last two where MatsuJun.  I may keep doing this or just go back to MatsuJun I haven't fully decided, but as long as the point gets across do you guys care? If my POV change is a bad idea please let me know. Also I made a little banner for it, or whatever you wanan call my cute artwork. LOL Oh one last thing. Any typos you se, I know I forgot to fix them and then my wod doc
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Chapter 3

The accident happened back on September 15^th, a day just like any other, seems like that happens a lot. Plans for that day, werent made just happened, like every other for the most part. I was heading one place when I shouldve been going somewhere else, but me being me, I must have been side tracked as usual.

 

Just days prior the five of us were sitting around at Sho-chan’s place planning. It had been five years since the five of us became the best friends that we are now, and it was a good idea to do something. So we tried to come up with an idea, but sadly all of our scheduals were not comepatiable. “Well, maybe theres a way to work around it.” I suggested. Sho-chan shook his head. “Can’t, Ive tried all week. Im just not free that day. School then work right after, and I can’t take the day off, Ive taken to many off as it is. One more and I can lose my job, can’t rise it. Sorry Aiba.” I looked over at Oh-chan who just shrugged. “I had actually already made plans for that day. It was the only good fishing day for me. Its been months…so…sorry.”

 

Sighing deeply I turned to Nino who just looked up at me then back at his DS. “Can’t. Just got a new video game yesterday that Ive been DYING to play. I put it off for the past two days so I could just sit at home all day and get really into it. Ah! Ahhh! Die you freak! Oh C’mon! That’s not how it works! Uncalled for!” Nino started jabbing at buttons getting realling into his game. “Jun-chan?” I asked. He rubbed the back of his neck and smiled weakly. "I can’t. Im going home for the week. My sister’s birthday is coming up. If I hadnt forgotten I wouldve made plans for both. Maybe after I get back?” He offered. I smiled back and nodded. “I like that that idea!”

 

I looked at the rest of them. “So we have to have one day after Jun-chan gets back for all of us. Okay?” They all agreed. I was so happy. It never occurred to me that something so horrible could happen. Something that could possible have torn our friendship into pieces.

 

Looking back on it I realise that within the two weeks of what we didn’t know could happen, I was the most optamistic of all, at least on the outsde. But one person could only be so happy.  Since the rest of them couldn’t be though it was left to me. The job of the hopful was left to the helpless.

 

Sure I always see the better of things and mostly always happy, but when something as scary as this happens, you cant excatly be all chipper and smiles…

 

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For once in my life I was the first one up. It felt odd not waking up to my father’s cooking. The amazing smell of Chinese food that my parents made, the smeel that I had missed so much since moving away from home.

 

Being back home in chiba felt so good yet like I shouldn’t be here when my friends were in such a big problem. But I couldn’t take it anymore, the ever optimisic Aiba Masaki needed a vacation, even if it was only for a wek to go back home. So getting a phone call from Nino was no surprise, and welcome, though his temper was abit to handle but highly understandable.

 

Fact of the matter was, we were in a bind, all five of us. Jun-chan the most of all. But I couldn’t think about that, jst a week was all I needed. A week of juts me, and I could put all my efforts into helping Jun-chan, even if it was just to smile, I would do it.

 

Spending a week at home was amazing, and everyday I did call to check up on Jun-chan, even though it was my week away if something bad happened I would go back if I was needed despratly. But Thank goodness I wasn’t.

 

Watching my family opertate for the first time in over a year was breath taking. I almost comoketely forgotten about everything. But just the smeeel of the food made everythign clear. It even helped a bit with the problem, making me remember to take some food [more like a lot off food] back with me for everyone.

 

First things when I walked back into my apartment a week later I found a depressed Sho-chan oh my couch. Putting my bags on the table and dropping my keys I walked over to him to find out what was wrong not bothering with the light since there was still the setting sunlight coming through my windows.

 

He didn’t respond my voice or my questions. He did nothing but sat there helpless like a child who was scared of a thinderstorm. This made my courisous as to what happened in my absence this week. My guess it was probabaly just a small fight between Sho-chan and one of these others, Nino or Jun-chan was my guess.

 

I got up from the couch to call one of them to see what happened but Sho-chan stopped me standing up pulling me into a hug. “Eh? S-Sho-chan, whats wrong? This isnt like you.” I stammered, my cheeks turning pink. Saying that I always liked Sho-chan would be stating the obvious, but never felt that way for me… Him being this way, this fourceful and silent was a bit confusing. “I…I can’t stand it. I know this is wrong but please. Please Aiba. I ask you, just this once…” He pulled back alittle bit facing me, the sun was almost gone behind the buildings.

 

His face gradually grew closer to mine making my face brun up. “Aiba, just this once, no matter how wrong it is will you…” His face was inches from mine before I pulled back putting a few feets of space between us. I looked down at the floor ashamed of myself and disapointed in Sho-chan. “I can’t.” I breathed. “I can’t do that. As much as I want to, Id feel horrible later on.” I looked up at his face, he looked like alost puppie just wanting to go home to his family…a forgotten family.

 

He sat back down on the couch regretting what had just happened. “Sorry…for doing this.” I watched his back for a few minutes before moving into the kitchen and getting some food for him. I could tell Sho-chan was in the hardest possition of all. He was just soo worried, but I couldn’t take advantage of his worry, I wouldn’t be able to look at myself if I did something so low. Sho-chan didn’t love me, not in that sense. I was his best friend, and he loved another. End of story. But deep down, I always resented myself for not taking that small chance. The only one I would every get.

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A/N: So once again before I go and do something else. This was chapter 3.  Was the POV change good or bad? Like honestly I kinda wanna know before I start chapter 4.

Feelin' a little:  Impatient
Jammin' out to: How Gee - Big Bang